Sorry

I have never realized when to say sorry to you

Times I have tried to understand what you expect

Times I have succeeded but proportions so few

Times I have handled your feelings without respect.

Maybe I would say help me understand 

Maybe you would make an exception from your stand

But may be I would tread the same path at hand 

But may be you already know the law of the land

It's time to contemplate and analyze myself through

Do I really feel what I wish to do

Do I really believe in open mind, or stuffs that thorough 

The more I feel, my eyes are red, maybe encapsulating sorrow

Experiments with Solitude

I wish people knew me better than they do.

Something that only I can wish, 

Being tired of the solitary bliss.

It's Time that I give it a miss

And depart with a goodbye kiss.

Onto solitude I can only think of saying "Booo...".

"Welcome to the world", did I reside in you?

Seems familiar yet so new,

Saturated by the enchanted crew.

They talk to me, but I talk to few.

Again in my lonely heart, isolation I brew,

With the clatter all around,  with all the cry and hue.

Away I fly to the abode of the silent cuckoo.
Somethings are as they are,
A hornets nest none should stir,
Consequences vivid with an unhealing scar.
Wish I didn't go really this far,
I wish people didn't know me as much as they do...

Lost chance

Whichever course i follow, it is untrodden nevertheless,

All my steps taken, whose consequences only I can assess,

Have led me here and will lead me on

Future is unknown and the past completely forlorn

In the dark alleys probably of a blackhole, in an abyss

Lost in space and time, maybe enjoying the solitary bliss

Eagerly waiting to reach the very top, the zenith I behold

Or is this just a passing dream, a story to remain untold

Latching on to the wheel am I

Unable turn it, I watch the waves passing by

In grave sombre I lost the chance to snatch the deal

One last opportunity to turn my life perfectly surreal. 

River cruise

I always believed I have remained the same

Through time and tide

Through thick and thin

Eternally bona fide

Changing no colours of my skin

Perhaps a bit unwise, perhaps a bit lame.

Drifted away have I from the course long ago

Thought I had stuck

May be I was wrong

May be I missed luck

May be I dumped the throng

Far away its trail is, taking a different course of flow.

Cruising have all us been, or rather creating such an impression

Destination far from sight

Saving no cause for delight

But still I hope I might

Succeed in taking the first flight

Crossing all boundaries, surviving chances of regression.

Dark Truths

What are the dark aspects of my life
Truly beyond
my comprehension are they
Striving am I
to know who hold the sway
Leading to an ugly strife.

Maybe, a self I wish to hide
In the dark corners
beyond the world's vision
So cautious am I
as to make it an obsession
But failed, news travelling far and wide.


Enticing it is to ears of the crowd
News it is frivolous,
Nevertheless filled with mirth
Bringing smile to me
even, must be of worth
Must be deserving to be spoken aloud.

Reply to Open mind

Got a song from an open mind

Makes me wonder 

Out of curiosity

Can I ever be someone of that kind

Perhaps you are born

with silver spoon of openness 

Knowing no block, knowing no bind

I know I can try to get to there

As I have all my life

In search of souls 

to learn thoughts, get some share

of minds and ideas

previously unknown 

Alas in my life they are rare

Easy it has been in the visible past

Slowly the tides

will change henceforth

experiences of life will surely be vast

Wish i may like them

wish they love me

Merry time as always will surely not last